I wish I can turn back time! I wish everything will stop, trouble will stop coming and every things back to normal! I was kind of mood swing today! I realised how fragile life was! In a blink of eyes, so many left! Leaving behind all the aching heart! Cherish & Treasure! But who really did? Until the very last moment when they realised they are just a step too late to tell their love one that they really cared! Perhaps, Human take things for granted! They assured they are never too late! They assured that they can do it later! But nobody know what gonna happen next!
Once, me and Cuppie Ling was chatting. And we was saying about what if one day we passed away? Which photo we wanna put? and sort of things. Was kind of crazy to say over this type of things but maybe this is life! We just don't know what will happen next!
Many things came across my mind. I should be sleeping now but here i am, sitting in front of my lappy, blogging ^^ Something must be bothering me but I can't figues out what's on my mind? I realised that I had great family, bf, cuppies and friends that really care for me. I feel loved.
Times, I feel suck!! I was like a trouble kids bringing endless problem to them! Attitude, money, job, phone and many things was always on my mouth. I been out of job for nearly 2months and still, I'm jobless! Economic is bad and it will get worse next year!
No job = No money & No money = Many problem
How i wish i can turn back time! back to my childhood time. No stress, No headache over any single things. Just play, eat and sleep. I know it's impossible and I should face the fact that I am a lady not a girl anymore! I should be big enough to handle my own problem. How I wish I can start my life journey over again with a well planned notes.
Should count myself lucky enough to find my Mr. Right, Jarvis. No one really understand me as much as he do! Without saying much, he know what i want. Can he really read my mind?I guess so ^^ He's someone who pamper and love me loads and I really appreciates it. He teach me 1, 2, 3... Everything from the start! His love is so tended that no one less can give! And, best of all, He never give up on me despite my poor attitude. I throw my anger, talk back loudly to him but still he love me like a little baby girl. He make me realised that I can ease my mind with him around!
Sometimes, I just wonder, Will the ugly ducking really turn into a beautiful swank? When someone tell alies, will the nose grow long? Do everlasting love really exist? Will fairy tales stories happen on us? Well, I know all this will never happened and all this shall never live in my world!
Sorry for such a long boring post! I just wanna pour all out from my mind! I wanna have a good rest tonight with nothings on my mind! shall work hard to find a job tomorrow! Jia you, Deslin!! All the best to myself ^^
Oh ya, Happy 16months anniversary to my AH PUI! Days is hard but i believe we will walk through everything together! 3 claps for AH PUI & ME for over come all the ups and downs for this 16months ^^ And I believe tomorrow will be a better day!!
GOOD NIGHT!!
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